A humbling Life (Love) exploit

The idea of love seems to be a lost concept with a lot of people considering the disparity between  their words and their actions (when they say they don't, and when they act like they don't...they actually do)

Hey readers, 

I have missed you; apologies for the lengthy hiatus. First things first, this essay will be borne from my experiences, not just my lucid thoughts.

A reason for this is for you guys to have an insight into my persona, what drives me in order to clear some doubts.

The idea that real people get subsumed by love at the detriment of rationality was something I was entirely unfamiliar with but there is always that one person. You'd think you can't find yourself utterly consumed by another until it happens.

You see, I have always avoided getting into relationships because I did not want to get hurt or have my heart broken. I saw what it did to people and I don't want any of that but like I have said, there is always that one person and change is a very constant thing.

Also, while at that, there is this thought of stripping yourself naked (before you think otherwise, I am talking about transparency and vulnerability) and then at the end, it goes south, you become strangers again and the fact that they could see through you, even as a stranger. All of this is what makes loving hard but hey, don't let the probability and uncertainty of tomorrow take away the beauty of today.

I think it’s very beautiful and yet unexplainable, how two strangers can be brought together by the essence of a mutual feeling.

This induced a realization within me regarding how many are ready to risk their last breath for a word others misunderstood; I see how gruesome that same word has been bastardized too.

Unconsciously, some are more comfortable with a wall between them and love while some of us are not; we have a lot of love to give but the struggle to make it conquer requires you to have someone who can match that, which is the hardest part. And this sometimes, makes you want to pluck your heart out...emotions could drive you crazy, I mean it but it's worth it.

Every trial, trust me on this one.

Being that it may, the need for somebody that has an authority over us can't be overemphasized; somebody that rubbed you off the power of speech.

Have you ever wondered why people hold on to such a thing like their life depends on them? Well in my case, with him, the usually unspoken words in my head usually find their way into sharp-tongued mouth without effort; going through this journey has made me a better and more positive person -- it's just wholesome.

When you find yourself in this humbling life experience, it comes with lots of inconvenience,You don't sever connections at the sight of it, you cling together to make it work, (well, until it stopped working sha🙂), but enjoy every moment and make it worthwhile.

Moreover, there is no such thing as "don't show too much love in a relationship," -- it's not dy/dx?

Communicate your feelings and if they manipulate you with it, that's on them.

And tell people how much you love them and how much they mean to you, as that might be the reminders and remainders of you when you lose them (maybe life, maybe death)

So far... as I know, that four-letter word is the most powerful force👌. And if you ask me what defines it, I'd say it's the decision and dedication to constantly choose a person at all times despite their flaws and inadequacies.

One day, you will wake up with your dreams and imagination in your face; don't miss the ride along.

(kisses and hugs)

Yeah, guys, I hope I did something, although it could be vague, I wasn't going to be detailed -- I'd rather play on the surface. (Winks)

See you again

With love, Teni❤